Locally dorky

She told me she’d light the lamp, But what she did was set a fire. A smile on her face while she did no good; A smile that made me believe she preached forever truth.  For years I went on believing she was by my side; For years the trickery was kept in disguise  While she whispered sweet nothings in my ear And made me believe to her I was dear.  Known her for eternity I have, I thought she was but my splitting image. Up until the fall when I found out with me she didn’t belong; Up until I realised she had been long gone. The honey dipped words she said to me were All bitter poison behind a loved up charade. I fell for it all, every word she said; I fell for it all, nothing gave it all away. Now I am floating in a abyss where it’s all blurry; Now I am floating in an abyss where my thoughts are a flurry Filled with no trust for the ones I call my own, Are they hiding behind laughter their betrayal? Looking in those familiar eyes I s

I’m in my safe place Yet the dark silhouette  Follows me everywhere, Creeps into my head,  Leaves me empty and gasping for air. It holds my waist,  Sways me back and forth; I laugh even in the pain,  Trying to ignore its presence, But it won’t let go.  It covers every part of me  And clutches tight; It reminds me of its existence  Each time I breathe right.  It screams in my ears  The cacophony unbearable  And yet I stand still  Pretend to not listen. My insides are burning, Even as on the outside I rejoice, While it sends trembles down my soul, Tickles my fears  In the worst way possible. One thing I am puzzled by  Is what you see. Do you see the shadows lurking Underneath the surface? Or do you just see the obviousness I put out for the world to witness?