Familiar?

She told me she’d light the lamp,

But what she did was set a fire.

A smile on her face while she did no good;

A smile that made me believe she preached forever truth. 

For years I went on believing she was by my side;

For years the trickery was kept in disguise 

While she whispered sweet nothings in my ear

And made me believe to her I was dear. 

Known her for eternity I have,

I thought she was but my splitting image.

Up until the fall when I found out with me she didn’t belong;

Up until I realised she had been long gone.

The honey dipped words she said to me were

All bitter poison behind a loved up charade.

I fell for it all, every word she said;

I fell for it all, nothing gave it all away.

Now I am floating in a abyss where it’s all blurry;

Now I am floating in an abyss where my thoughts are a flurry

Filled with no trust for the ones I call my own,

Are they hiding behind laughter their betrayal?

Looking in those familiar eyes I still can’t see the pretence;

Looking in those familiar eyes she still makes me believe 

That she is a gospel with zero qualms.

I stare in them, pretending to own the farce. 

Whilst I sit in front of her my head spins;

Whilst I sit in front of her I muse still,

"Am I becoming her by putting up a curtain of ignorance,

Or am I already a part of that army where hypocrisy hails hence?"