Surrender

I walk into the field of roses

With a smile that never falters;

Thorns pierce my feet

Yet you’ll never see my face alter. 

As I walk deeper, 

I am surrounded by death eaters,

And they keep sucking at my soul now and then

But I don’t let them feed off my shine.

My glow keeps flickering

But it never completely disappears.

Then I notice I am walking on thin ice,

It cracks, but I tread along without fears. 

When, despite smiling through the suffering,

Into the ice cold water I keep sinking,

I realise I amn’t after all brave,

But afraid to face the pain.

So, for the first time in ages I let go

And let my emotions take control. 

I wave the white flag and I surrender to the ache,

Let the tears flow, all over my face. 

I wait for someone to pull me out,

Patiently embracing insecurities that sprout;

As I understand it’s okay to not be okay,

I feel I can finally breathe, maybe even float over after my time.